Poetry, by Esther Nunoo

You can’t just do you
When you’re supposed to be thinking for two
Especially one that’s helpless
Try to see it from my point of view
Why have you taken my pacifier?
And given me the knife?
How dare you try to “fix” a careless mistake by destroying life?
By destroying potential?
By letting me, the innocent, go through the strife?
By intentionally letting the most precious and fragile hit a concrete floor?
By feeding the statistics and making them scream for more
When you knew I couldn’t take a stand for myself
For I am
Two eyes to never see
A mouth to never speak
A nose to never smell
A mind to never wonder
A brain to never acquire knowledge
A life to never be lived on Earth
Fucked up shit is, you coulda given birth
There's something called adoption you know
Or were you too shamed that u were gonna show?
That u were gonna get big and your nice flat tummy would grow?
Well u shoulda thought of that before you had me made
I don't care if the condom broke that ain’t ma mistake!
You thought u was all grown having sex and all
But when it came time to make a grown decision you let me fall
You gave me up cause of your selfish ways
You will realize your foolish mistake one of these days
Cause you never knew what or who I coulda been
I was gonna be a boy you woulda name me Ruben
I would have been the first in the fam to go to college
Cause you ain’t going either; you messed up your chances
Anyways I was gonna make it big was gonna be president
Maybe if u had known this you woulda been a lil more hesitant
But it’s too late for any changes now
You made your choice, go ahead mommy now take a bow
You successfully got rid of me and now u are free
Can't you see ?
You made life easier for me
Don't worry about me and my wellbeing
See there's this guy above I like to call Father
He helped me understand I'm something like a martyr
I'm now a little angel up above
Chillin and occasionally sending u some love
Cause although you destroyed me, I will never hate you
I will make sure God's grace and mercies see you through and through